If I could thicken hair naturally
then perhaps thoughts would not slither from my scalp
like grey spindles 
and drag my hairline 
into a restless pillow
Full of down and unlived dreams.

If I could iron skin with vitamins
then perhaps my face would not crumple
like a paper map,
witness to the places my heart flew fastest
leaving melanin footprints against my pores
unafraid of sunlight.